Secrets

There are things I want to tell people but I just can't. I know no-one will believe me, no-one ever believes me and I have proof for that, a lot of the time I don't even believe myself. Maybe they'll just ignore it or take it the wrong way, don't want that either. Sometimes I think I tell people too much, somethings should be kept secret sometimes. The thing is I don't think anyone knows me (thinking about it now, this excludes my mum and I guess Abi does understand me too... she's awesome like that), the real me, I suppose one person did but he betrayed me and that hurt, I don't learn from my mistakes though, I love too quickly and trust too quickly and just let myself get hurt. I've become less open recently I think, I know I still talk and say too much with everything coming out wrong and creating those awkward moments. Like if you were watching a film with your friend/s and a random sex scene comes on and you don't want to watch it but you don't know what to say, that's what I create by what I say a lot of the time, only much worse. So yeah, I don't think anyone really understands me but then no-one really wants to... that's probably why.

Edit:
I love you <3


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